Life it keeps a changing

It's been almost five weeks and I still haven't heard anything about when I'll be starting work. I've moved in with my mother against my better judgement, and it's been really difficult. I've also developed gastritis, which is basically an inflammation of the stomach, and it's extremely unpleasant, so I would advise avoiding it if you can.

I'm coming to a few more realizations about my life - for one thing, I really have no idea what I want to do or where I want to live, and I have no idea how to figure it out. I also think that there are three big things in life - family, community, and work. In order to be happy, it's important to have a family who loves you, a community (such as friends) who cares about you, and work that you love. I feel like I don't really have any of these things. Everyone in my family has all started families of their own, so to them I'm becoming extended family, and I don't know if I'll ever start my own family. I have friends, but almost all of them have moved away, so they're not in my life so much anymore. And I don't have any work, much less work that I love. All in all, I'm just feeling a bit lost.

Still, I think it's important to be grateful if I can, so I'm going to give it a try:

1. A place to live. Losing my apartment really sucked, but I'm glad that I at least have a place to live in the meantime. Even if it's so stressful that it's causing me real physiological damage.

2. A working car. I live out in the boonies now, so I'm grateful that I have a car that will get me out of here from time to time.

3. My bicycles. When the weather clears up, this should be a nice place to go bike riding.

4. I can't really think of anything else right now :(