Because this isn't a blog about What I Did With My Weekend! Right now I'm on CD 25, as far as I can tell, hence the title of the previous post. In the last 11 months of being on birth control, at least after the first few cycles, I've always started spotting before my monthly funtime, often as early as CD 21 or 22. So far this cycle, there hasn't been ANY spotting. This makes me happy!
What doesn't make me happy: My mother. She is emotionally abusive, narcissistic, manipulative, and selfish. She's also getting old and not taking care of herself. It's a very long story, and I'm not going to get into it right now, but she's getting to the point where she CAN'T take care of herself. It makes me angry that she's let herself get this way, but I can't force her to take care of herself, so there's not a lot I can do. I spent a long time putting off what I wanted in order to make her happy, and I'm not really ok with doing that anymore. She was actually the person who caused me to think that I never wanted kids. When I was very young, probably around 6 or 7, I was scared of getting blood drawn, and her response was "well, then you shouldn't have kids, when you get pregnant they'll be putting needles in your arm all the time". Who says that to a little kid???
The reason I bring this up is that my sister just told me that my mother fell and couldn't get up and the fire department had to be called to help. Obviously the situation is deteriorating. My husband and I aren't wealthy, and I'm at a complete loss about what to do.
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