Spotting :(

I had a bit of spotting this morning.  My rational mind is telling me that it's the precursor to my monthly funtime, which is scheduled to start this weekend.  My ridiculously hopeful mind thinks "maybe it's implantation spotting!"  So yeah. 

In (m)other news, my mom fell AGAIN yesterday afternoon.  My sister had to drive back to her house and enlist a neighbor to help get my mom up because she insisted on not having 911 called again.  She thinks the new painkillers her doctor gave her are too strong and causing her to not be able to walk.  I just don't know.  At least she starts physical therapy next week, which I am SO grateful for.  She doesn't get any exercise at all, and has apparently gained 30 pounds in the last year or two, and she was obese before that.  I called her last night and got an earful about how my brother is so much better than I am because he's already called several times, and then we got into it about Christmas and how I'll be going to my husband's family's house for Christmas Eve because they don't celebrate Christmas Day, and my mom's family celebrates both days, so D and I will spend all of Christmas Day with her.  Considering I work on Christmas Eve, so I will only be spending a few hours with D's family, I think she's getting the better end of the bargain.  She demanded both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, and when I said no, she suggested the D goes to his family's house and I go to her house.  I tried explaining that D is also my family now, but she wasn't really listening.  ARGH.

Anyway, this is not a family issues blog!  So continuing on with my story of Monday, I finally bit the bullet and bought new jeans.  Since I got engaged, or even before that really, I've put on 10-15 pounds that I haven't been able to get rid of (well, I actually put on 20 pounds, but I lost some and then plateaued).  I can't fit into my pants anymore.  I've been wearing skirts and dresses not-stop for over a year now.  It's bad.  I don't have time to exercise more, although I ride my bike to work almost every day, 8.6 miles round trip.  I don't eat a lot (at least, I like to think so, but really, we don't keep junk food in the house, I rarely snack, and I think my meals are pretty healthy most of the time).  My cholesterol, blood sugar, blood pressure, and BMI are normal, although my BMI is inching closer to overweight.  I know I'm getting older and my body isn't going to be the same, but gosh darn it, it's driving me crazy!  I just want to fit into my clothes!

Just went to the bathroom.  Still spotting.  Huzzah.  I think I will try calling again about my surgery that may or may not ever happen.  Even though I think it's not the only problem, and quite possibly not the problem at all.  I wish I could get a total idea of what is happening with my cycle.