Yesterday went well, I think

I have to admit, though, I'm beginning to panic.  For one thing, I'm panicking about the number of needles that I (or my husband) will have to stick in me.  So not excited about that.  If I could make my husband be the baby-gestator, I would.  Alas, that is not an option.  For another thing, we have to pay for the entire cycle ahead of time (this is probably normal, but I've never done it before, so what do I know?).  Forking over $15,000 that we don't actually have is terrifying, especially if it fails.  We can only afford one shot at this, so failure means game over.  I'm trying to make myself feel better about it by telling myself that if it works, then we achieved our goal, and if it doesn't, I'll have more time to get a second job to pay off the debt.  That's good, right?

In other news, I'm starting to get slightly worried about being homeless in another month.  Buying a new house is getting to be more difficult than I expected.

And a bit more about my rant yesterday.  I can't remember if Bridget Jones viewed all married people as smug marrieds, or if it was only the smug ones.  I definitely don't think all moms are smug moms, and people who have been through infertility are far less likely to be smug moms.  Most of my friends are not smug moms (actually, I can't really think of a single close friend who is.  Most of my friends are just too awesome for that).  But something did happen that upset me recently, and I'm not sure how to react.  I belong to a book club.  Everyone else is a mother.  The book discussions are good, but usually talk drifts to talking about children, which doesn't really bother me because of course children take up a lot of their free time, so they're thinking about it a lot, and well, they're CHILDREN.  They're hilarious!  I find the stories as heartwarming and amusing as the next reasonable person would.

BUT.  They tend to unconsciously exclude non-mothers.  It's starting to drive me batty.  We were having an online discussion about our next book, and someone suggested a "mom's night out".  Ummmmm.  I'm sure I would be welcome, but wth???  At least two people in the group, including one of the people who promoted the mom's night out idea, have dealt with infertility.  Most of the group knows I'm dealing with it now.  Why would you make that kind of a suggestion???  Why not ladies night out?